Xanga is down

January 15, 2012 § Leave a comment

Haven’t updated this blog in forever, but since xanga is down here goes. 137.6 today, down a lb from yesterday’s.

Unfortunately, there bf’s family is having a family dinner for everyone who have birthdays this month… his grandma does not nake the healthiest of foods, so we’ll see how that goes.

My dieter’ malva didn’t seem to tide over well with me this morning.. ugh

Didn’t workout yet today, I may or may not. I did workout the past 6 days, in a row so it wont be the end of the world if I don’t. Don’t want to lose the habit though… bf was making breakfast when I woke up though so I had half a slice of double fiber wheat (50), an egg (70) and a little bit of smoked gouda. & I usually workout prior to first meal so blah. I’d go down at least another half lb after a workout if I did however, if the last week is any indication.

Last night I used my thigh-master while watching a movie, I need to get back into more habits like this. We were watching The Devils Rejects and by hell (ha) I swear I’m going to transform my body to the same level as Cheri Moon Zombie’s!

133.2

November 19, 2011 § Leave a comment

2 steps forward, one step back?

I seem to do that a lot.

134

November 19, 2011 § Leave a comment

Was 134 even again today. Keep floating from 133.6-134.4 

Need to get out of this place, asap >.< It hasn’t budged for long enough. Granted maintenance is better than a gain, but ugh. >.<

 

Getting to the super annoyed and almost angry point.

 

 

Stand in the Rain – Superchick

November 18, 2011 § Leave a comment

She never slows down.
She doesn’t know why but she knows that when she’s all alone, feels like its all coming down
She won’t turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down
[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain
She won’t make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she’ll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything she’s running from wants to give up and lie down.

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
Stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
[CHORUS]
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

Discouraged

November 16, 2011 § Leave a comment

Getting a wee discouraged. Beg of the month I was 136.6.
Halfway through the month only at ~133.8

So, I took measurements. At least those changed!

Waist: 25.75 -> 25 even
Hips: 36.25 -> 36 even
Thighs: 22.75 -> 22 even
Calves: -> 15.25 -> 14.75 even

Navel is at 30, never took measurements of that before. & having trouble getting measurements of my arm alone, lol

So though less than 3lbs lost I dropped 2.25 inches in two weeks. That’s good, right?
At least some numbers went down.

Btw. Looks like the wordpress webpage through computer started working without error as did the application, yay!

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Uh, Lying on the internet

November 14, 2011 § Leave a comment

Lying on the internet to people is worse than lying to people you come face to face with everyday.
Worse in the sense that you’re pretty fucking pathetic. I try to analyze why people lie when I catch them in one. I guess it comes down to self worth?

I find comfort in the fact that I don’t have to lie to strangers. Yes, there are times I worry or screen what I really want to say and unfortunately it is usually due to not wanting to hurt feelings of online friends made at whatever outlet I’m at.

Of course I have omitted things from specific blogs. I keep from saying some depressing shit on my ED blog, but that’s because I have another place for that. A more private place. Different audiences work for me. Or in some cases, no audiences, just the possibility of one.

 

 

Fuck, after typing all that. I just realized that I pretty much lie and omit my eating habits to most everyone I know. I am not one to talk.

 

What I meant to get at though, is people need to be honest somewhere. If not you start believing all your lies to the multiples of people you tell them to.

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